its been two days now since youve left, ive been touching myself non stop, been horny and wet. i dont think ive ever been so desperate. i want you in me and having your way with me. im so horny im exhausted. ill keep updated.
Its 12:35am, today I marry my best friend. Words cannot express what is going through my mind right now, my heart is so full of love for you that its going to take the rest of my life and there after to just give you some of what I feel for you. You are the most incredible person I’ve ever met, The one person I can count on. You are that someone, I love most in this world.
When I look at you, I know, that no matter what happens, I will follow you anywhere. I trust you and I believe that you will take care of us.
My heart is beating so fast right now thinking about seeing you for the first time tomorrow at the alter, I’m not even tired because I’m so excited to be your wife and to be owned by you for the rest of my life.
I want you to know more than anything how much respect I have for you. From this day forward and everyday after, I will do everything in my power to make you feel the respect and love that you have never failed to give me. I want you to know that I will always do my job as your wife to take care of you and fulfill your needs.
From this day, we are a team, we walk together and I will always be there for you, to comfort you and love on you and scratch your back when you need it most 🙂 I will always support you and I will never fail to make you feel any less of a man at home or anywhere. You are my owner, my lover, my giver and for that, no matter what our trials may be, I believe you deserve to be treated as such. I will always be your biggest fan and I will always believe in you. My faith in you will never sway.
Today, I promise to always be the best wife and slave that I can be. I promise to love you without judgement or criticism. I promise to trust in you and to always be honest with you.
Today, I promise myself to you, mind, body and soul. I belong to you.
I realize that I have been posting a lot on this blog lately, but with mine and Britt’s wedding just a month a way, i’ve had a lot of thoughts going through my head.
Like most husbands to be, i’m sure, i’ve been doing a lot of thinking. I want to make our wedding night as amazing as possible and I want to start things off on the right foot. I came across a blog posting recently that mentioned giving your new wife a spanking on your wedding night and I really like that idea. I can’t think of a better way to start our marriage than beginning it with a hard spanking, I think it sets the tone for the rest of the marriage.
Our wedding night is also going to be the first time Britt gets to cum in a long time. By the wedding night, she will have been denied orgasm for three entire months, and she will finally get the release that she has been craving. I’m looking forward to that moment.
I’d love to do maybe a little private ceremony on our own after the wedding too though, something that cements her submission to me for the rest of our lives. If anyone has any ideas, I’d love to hear them, and i’d also love to hear about your wedding night.
I hope everyone is doing well.
Until next time,
Things I wouldn’t do:
Sleep with another guy – I would never personally sleep with another guy and I wouldn’t let Britt sleep with another guy either.
Knife Play – Knife play freaks me out. Not my thing
Permanent Damage – I wouldn’t do anything that causes permanent damage
Blood Play – Not my thing. No blood in my sex..
Ass licking – I would not lick Britt’s ass or ever have her lick mine LOL
Candle wax – We tried it and it didn’t really stick. I guess it’s not really something I wouldn’t do, just not something I WANT to do.
Strap on – I have no reason to use a strap on and I wouldn’t let anyone use one on me.
Fisting – I don’t see the appeal in fisting. It’s not my thing.
Gang bang – I wouldn’t ever let another guy touch Britt, so this is definitely a NO
Enemas – Not my thing.
Permanent Orgasm Denial – This is something I would never do. I love making Britt come too much, but it is something that I require my slave to be willing to do. I feel like if my slave won’t give her orgasms up forever at my command then she isn’t really owned by me.
Ass to mouth – This is unsanitary and could cause harm. I would never do anything to cause harm to Britt.
Things I would do:
Bondage – I love tying Britt up, it’s a lot of fun sometimes.
Spanking – Spanking is one of my biggest kinks, I love giving spankings, hard spankings at that. I love to push Britt out of her comfort zone and afterwards she is usually a lot more submissive.
Oral – I love both giving and receiving oral sex. It’s my favorite.
Anal plug – Nothing sexier than using a butt plug on Britt. I would never have one used on me though.
Talking dirty – Very hot and fun.
Mutual masturbation – Pretty tame, but I love watching Britt touch herself.
Vibrators – Love using vibrators.
Sex in public – I’m not crazy about it but I’ve done it.
Rough sex – I love rough sex.
Choking – I enjoy choking Britt sometimes.
Threesomes – We’ve already had one and it was a lot of fun. I’d love to do it again in the future.
Orgasm control and denial – This is one of my biggest kinks. There is nothing hotter to me than watching Britt struggle and try to keep herself from going crazy while I take her to the edge over and over.
Outdoor sex – I equate this with sex in public. I’ve done it, but it’s not my favorite thing.
Teasing – I love teasing Britt. This goes back to my orgasm control/denial kink.
Anal hooks – I would use one but it’s not something that really turns me on.
Face slapping – I would never smack anyone hard in the face, but a little light face smacking? Sure, I see no harm in that.
Confinement – This isn’t really my thing, but if Britt was into it, I’d do it.
Anal Sex – I’ve done it before and I enjoy it. To me, it’s one of the ultimate forms of submission.
Nipple Torture – I love it. I love nipple clamps and pinching and twisting Britt’s nipples. I love the way she struggles to let me have my way with them.
Tattoo – This is something I’ve thought about, but never seriously. I think it could be hot to mark my slave as owned in a permanent way.
Fantasy Rape – This is something I’ve never tried but I want to in the future.
Forced homosexuality – This is something I find really hot. I want to force Britt to eat another girl’s pussy, and I have in the past. It was a huge turn on.
Forced Nudity (in private) – This is something I already do.
Head of Household – In my house, all decisions are made by me. This is a requirement.
Domestic Discipline – Punishments are handed down for disrespect/breaking rules. This, and me being head of our house, is what our relationship was built on.
Sleeping with Another Girl – This is something I have done before, but I’d only do it with Britt present and involved. I would let Britt sleep with another girl but only with me being involved.
We’re getting married and we’re finally starting a life together..
M would like a list of things from me of what I would do and wouldn’t do if it were asked of me by him. He especially just wants to know where we both are on a personal sexual level at this point in our life.
Please understand that this is not a permanent list, we’re always going to be on an ever changing path.
Things I wouldn’t do…..
Sleep with another guy – I’m almost positive I wouldn’t be asked to do this, but if I were, it wouldn’t happen.
Knife play – sucks and why would you want to do this, it’s dangerous
Blood play – just plain unsanitary and gross
Anal hooks – the plug is almost to much sometimes as it is.
Ass licking – LOL this is for you daddy 😉
Candle wax – tried it, I don’t think either of us were to fond of it.
Strap on – never Gonna happen
Fisting -neither is this
Gang bang – m wouldn’t put me in this situation
Face slapping – he likes it, I don’t
Permanent damage – I don’t even know what this is in the first place.
Ass to mouth – dirty.
Confinement – can’t stand being locked away
Things I would do ########
Fantasy rape – hot
Forced nudity – I’ve been doing it all along
Bdsm – I obviously signed up for this lifestyle..
Bondage – loathe being tied up, it’s extremely uncomfortable but I do it because it pleases m
Spanking – m likes it, makes him feel powerful. I like when it’s over, makes me feel important when I stop crying.
Oral – it is what it is, m loves doing it to me, I like seeing him find pure pleasure out of it.
Anal plug – once I get passed the pain, Im ok
Talking dirty – not my thing, i got made fun of last time I did it
Mutual masturbation – it’s hot watching m play with his hard Dick
Vibrators – nothing feels better on my pussy
Sex in public – the idea of getting caught is so hot
Rough sex – love being throw against the wall
Blow jobs – my favorite
Choking – holding my breath and being choked turns me on.
Threesomes – futuristic of course
Orgasm control and denial – not my favorite but I get to touch myself slot
Outdoor sex – not awesome, to dirty
Teasing – pretty self explanatory…
Hoh – m is Hoh, this doesn’t apply to me at all but it applies to the lifestyle and I like it. Keeps me grounded.
Domestic discipline – this is the foundation of our relationship… It has to be under the would.
This is all I can currently think of, if I need to add more later, ill be back 😉
People are different and they all expect different things out of life. We are all unique and nobody looks at life the same way. Some people want salvation, some want to live a life worth being remembered, and some others want money or physical possessions. These are all pursuits that most people would call normal, they are firmly in the box that we, as a society, label as normal, and it seems that anything outside of this box is severely misunderstood. It’s a given that some things outside the box of normalcy can be dangerous, can cause harm, and can destroy lives, but people forget that doesn’t apply to everything. It is possible to be firmly outside the box while still being healthy, happy, and immensely fulfilled.
I myself am firmly outside the box of normality. I don’t desire money, though I have a good job with the potential to move up and make more money as the years pass, and I care nothing about being remembered. All I desire in life is to be the Master of a Slave that desires nothing more from life than to be a Slave to her Master. I want to guide and watch my slave grow as I take pleasure in all that we accomplish together. I want to watch her as she struggles to submit to my desires, as prioritizes my needs over hers, knowing that in the end, she will be safe, she will be loved, and she will be owned. I want to watch as my Slave gives her all, selflessly, to please her Master, and I want to give my all to provide for us and make sure we have all of the things we could ever need.
I want a Slave that holds nothing back from me and I want her body to be firmly in my command. I want to sense immense respect in her voice when she speaks to me and know that she bound to me and to my wishes for the rest of our lives. I want my Slave to forget the word “NO,” replacing it in her vocabulary simply with a “YES” or a “YES SIR.” I want to tease her and toy with her, have my way with her, frustrate her and bring her to the edge, push her to a place she never thought she could go, or would ever want to go, and then force her to beg for me to stop. I want to see her cry and beg, whimper and moan, and then thank me for allowing her to serve.
Next month, I make one more step towards this life. Next month, I marry the love of my life, my Slave, my Slut, my amazing Fiance, and I move one step closer to this life. I know that there are going to be challenges, there always have and always will be, but this is the life I want. I never want to step back into the bubble of normality, I hope to constantly find myself further and further from it as time goes by. I have seen normality, and it’s not for me. I never want to be the guy trying to live up to the goals that society has set, I want to reach my own goals, live my own life, do my own thing, and make my won way with my salve at my side, wherever I decide to take us.
So m has made me a deal and I have to have something new and kinky to try with him tomorrow night… I have to have my idea by lunch tomorrow, which is around 3.. So if anyone has any great ideas, that would be helpful 😉 there are no limits in this conversation! All ideas are accepted!